Tweets for the Week of 03-03-2014

Last Round of Chemo Side Effects and Studio Ghibli Marathon

This last round of chemo has been a rough one. Every single side effect I’ve had to wrestle with over the course of my treatment–nausea, deep muscle and bone aches and pain, fever spikes, peripheral neuropathy, fatigue, anemia, hand-foot syndrome–has flared up, as though to usher in one last reunion tour. I keep telling myself I just have to endure a few more days and I’ll be on the upswing but when I’m feverish, queasy, and hurting everywhere, it’s hard to think beyond the “now,” and the now sucks.

To take my mind off how sick I’m feeling, Matthew and I are having a Studio Ghibli marathon. Yesterday we watched Tales from Earthsea, The Cat Returns, and My Neighbor Totoro, all movies I somehow hadn’t managed to see before. Earthsea started out really promisingly but fell apart storywise about halfway through, but the other two were absolutely charming. We’ll continue the marathon with Ponyo today.

“Beautiful Winter” in Cicada Magazine March/April 2014 Issue

Received today, my contrib. copies of the March/April 2014 issue of Cicada with my short story “Beautiful Winter” in it with beautiful illustrations by Forest Strawn-Wing.

I’m thrilled to be appearing once again in Cicada, as this magazine holds a special place in my heart–being my very first fiction sale and publication with “The Adventures of Manny the Mailmobile” in their Jan/Feb. 2002 issue.

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Tweets for the Week of 02-17-2014

Tweets for the Weeks of 01-13-2014 to 02-10-2014

  • RT: @redhead5318 Review of The Book of Apex vol4, via @JustBookReading , stories by @lettie_prell @eugiefoster etc. http://justbookreading.com/2014/02/15/review-the-book-of-apex-volume-4/ … @ApexBookCompany 10:05 AM, 15 Feb 2014
  • First day back to work this chemo cycle. Too. Many. Stairs. *gasp pant wheeze* But am really glad I made it in. #CopingWithCancer 5:31 PM, 14 Feb 2014
  • Light, freezing rain; the icefall begins. Amusing that winter storm staples to Georgians is apparently French toast fixings: bread eggs milk 5:27 AM, 12 Feb 2014
  • Official word from the Speaker’s Office: House offices (and ditto my office) will be closed Wed-Thurs (wait-n-see Fri). #Atlanta #GA 12:22 PM, 11 Feb 2014
  • Just ancd by Governor’s office: state employees living N of I-20 & outside I-285 should leave now. All other employees should leave at noon. 10:39 AM, 11 Feb 2014
  • Can’t seem to shake this fever. Not going in to work tomorrow, either. :( At least we’re avoiding snowmageddon2-2014. #CopingWithCancer 12:39 AM, 11 Feb 2014
  • Had to concede to fever I’ve been battling all weekend, so am not returning to work tomorrow. Dammit. Hoping for Tuesday. #CopingWithCancer 9:07 PM, 9 Feb 2014
  • Took three needle sticks to find a robust enough vein, but chemo round five done! Whew. One more to go. #CopingWithCancer 4:40 PM, 31 Jan 2014
  • RT: @NathanBurgoine My #FridayReads – Bingo book is @eugiefoster’s “Returning My Sister’s Face and Other Far Eastern Tales of Whimsy and Malice” 9:59 AM, 31 Jan 2014
  • Ow. Between chemo sessions and my last hospital stay, seems I’m running out of good vein real estate to be jabbed in. >.< #CopingWithCancer 9:29 AM, 31 Jan 2014
  • Due to snow/ice, chemo appointment yesterday postponed, so heading out to chemo round 5 now. 8:48 AM, 31 Jan 2014
  • Just retrieved abandoned car with @MatthewMFoster. Roads seem to be much better but still patches of ice. Going back under electric blanket. 2:32 PM, 29 Jan 2014
  • Hot soup had & snuggled under electric blanket now. Governor’s office has declared all government offices closed tomorrow. Totes sleeping in 12:37 AM, 29 Jan 2014
  • Abandoned car, walked half mile in snow and ice, and @MatthewMFoster and I are now finally HOME! Brr. *shiver shiver* 10:37 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • STILL not home yet. Little over five miles yet to go, will probably take over an hour, and roads are definitely getting icy. O.o 6:23 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • Now with @MatthewMFoster on gridlock 400N making our way home from North Springs MARTA station. Gah. 3:02 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • Then herded us back to train station to catch single track line. Incredibly packed train. (Do not think counts as avoiding crowds.) 3:00 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • First MARTA sent us to take a bus to next station so spent twenty minutes in snow waiting for bus that never came… 2:59 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • Snow in Atlanta. Office closed early. Gridlock traffic so decided to take MARTA train home. Aand…was a fire on the northbound line. 2:57 PM, 28 Jan 2014
  • 1st chemo-affected legislative session workweek accomplished. Exhausted but feeling productive. Now for weekend on couch! #CopingWithCancer 6:03 PM, 24 Jan 2014
  • 1st day back to work after 4th chemo round kicked my ass but also big sense of accomplishment. Home now. I flop on couch. #CopingWithCancer 7:36 PM, 21 Jan 2014
  • Last labs showed my white blood counts have rebounded, cultures still clean. I’m being discharged! Woohoo, going home! #CopingWithCancer 2:25 PM, 19 Jan 2014
  • Voting ends tomorrow for Apex’s 2013 Best Story Reader Poll.Go vote! (Psst “Trixie and the Pandas of Dread” is on it) http://www.apexbookcompany.com/2014/01/apex-magazine-2013-story-of-the-year-readers-poll/12:05 PM, 19 Jan 2014
  • Have seen doctor. Chest x-rays clean, cultures not growing, could be virus. More tests ordered. Remaining in Emory. Sigh. #CopingWithCancer 1:14 PM, 18 Jan 2014
  • Still have low-grade fever. Still haven’t seen physician team. On antibiotic drip. Chest X-rays ordered, though. #CopingWithCancer 10:58 AM, 18 Jan 2014
  • So my doctor’s decided to admit me to the hospital. Sigh. #CopingWithCancer 4:59 PM, 17 Jan 2014
  • Playing fever yo-yo, spiked up again. Heading to hospital now with @MatthewMFoster for labwork. #CopingWithCancer 1:40 PM, 17 Jan 2014
  • Yay and whew. I have been delivered a health release from the onus of jury duty! #CopingWithCancer 8:46 AM, 17 Jan 2014
  • Fever is dropping. Still have to keep an eye on symptoms but looks like no ER visit tonight. Whew. #CopingWithCancer 5:16 PM, 16 Jan 2014
  • Spiked a fever. Trying to avoid an ER visit so I’m taking one Tylenol to see if fever drops or continues to rise. Ugh. #CopingWithCancer 4:13 PM, 16 Jan 2014
  • First Day 1of the Georgia Legislative Session in 7 years of working for the GGA that I have to miss and stay home. Waah! #CopingWithCancer 8:23 AM, 13 Jan 2014

Tweets for the Week of 01-06-2014

Tweets for the Week of 12-30-2013

2014′s Resolution

This is normally when I look back on the spent year and reflect upon what I’ve accomplished and what I haven’t and then go on to set some goals for the new year. My focus has typically been on my writing, as that’s been the main goal-related emphasis of my energies, attention, and ambition for over a decade, arguably for most of my lifetime. But this year, my priorities are different. 2014 will be all about kicking cancer’s ass, taking back what it has stolen from me, and most of all, simply surviving it.

I’m finding, halfway through my chemo schedule, that I’m going through cycles of bleakness heading into each new round. The pain and exhaustion and sickness that accompanies the start of each cycle, the increasing mental fogginess–it’s becoming terribly easy to fixate on what I’m going through, which in turn makes me more inclined to wallow in the dourer possibilities and spiral into negativity and depression. And I realized I need to zoom out a bit. These upcoming months are not going to be ones to savor, not ones to stop and sniff flowers during; they’re something that must be endured and then put behind me.

So this year, my resolution is to keep looking forward, head up and eyes planted firmly on the horizon, and to maintain the certainty that I will get to that distant place up ahead. All this necessary unpleasantness will do upon me as it must as I forge along, with each step bringing me closer to a time when this will become something I went through–in the past and done with, albeit not forgotten.

Goodbye and good riddance, 2013. Bring it, 2014.