Yesterday was a good day. Aside from a bit tired, felt the best I had in months: no pain, no sickness, engaged and focused at work. A memory of what being healthy–well, as healthy as my human suit gets–was like.
This morning, thought I was going to have another good day. Felt energetic and chipper, pain free. Went out with Matthew to run a couple errands even. But think I might have overdone it. We were only out for an hour or so, but by the time we got home I had a headache and started feeling sick. Now I am thoroughly miserable and hurting.
Have taken drugs. Many many drugs. If they are helping, then I don’t even want to contemplate how awful I’d feel without them. But honestly, it feels like they’re barely making a dent.
My thoughts are with you.
It’s so easy to overdo when you feel good. Rest until you have another good day. Or half a good day. Or whatever you can manage. <3
do what you can, think when you want and know you owe no one but yourself… be well Eugie, stay safe and rest ansd if that doesn’t work… Vodka… amazing how it can hide tears
Vodka hides tears. Ok I know these are serious posts , but someone every thread has something funny poignant and awesome. Basically you’ve got stellar friends,which means you stellar. (Ps vodka hides happy tears right?) <3
I’m sorry you’re in pain Eugie. Thinking about you.
Well…you got me.
Glad you got to feel “normal” even if it was for a little while. Hang in there! Also, sorry to hear via Matthew M. Foster that the pain was Dr. Who triggered. *hugs!*
It must be doubly frustrating when a good day is followed by a bad one. I’m hoping the frequency of good days increases, and that the severity of the bad ones diminishes.
Thinking of your today. How great to hear that you’ve had days with diminished pain. May those days become more frequent, and you’ll soon be singing “I feel human again.”