Been wrestling with mood issues which I’m pretty sure are due to a formulary switch in my HMO which stopped including Adderall XR (extended release) in the list of covered meds, forcing me to switch to Adderall IR (instant release). The IR isn’t as effective at combating my lupus/MCTD related fatigue, and it’s also harder on my stomach. Been trying to offset the difference with caffeine with limited success. Slept for 12 hours on Saturday, which is very, very bad.
So logy, cranky, and melancholy is me—or else I’m entertaining three dwarves in my brain.
Apologies to folks who I’ve neglected and/or who are waiting on me for something. One of the coping mechanisms I’ve established when I’m drained and scraping bottom on the energy/motivation bucket is to withdraw and triage to-do items into “essential, life and death, red alert now!”—like paying bills and going to my day job—and “meh, what’s another hamster on my toe?” categories. Most things end up as the latter. Sigh.
• 54-day “lively and interesting but…” rejection from Strange Horizons with invite to submit again (!@%#%^ I’m never going to break into them, am I?)
New Words, uh, lessee, since last entry:
• Wednesday: 1,300
• Thursday: 600
• Friday+Weekend: 500
• Yesterday: 1,700
Racing to hit zero draft by the end of the year.
At least getting words on the page is great therapy. A productive day of writing makes the world brighter and shinier. Of course, the correlary is that a day of no writing just piles on the suckitude.
You might get your doctor to appeal to your HMO for XR coverage. Some will allow a usually non-covered medication if a doctor says the allowed version doesn’t work for you. 🙂
I was about to say the same thing. It infuriates me that insurance companies are allowed to make these kinds of decisions.
I’ve already tried. I can’t request an exception consideration until I’ve tried three other meds “in the same family.” And I can’t get an appointment to see my p-doc this month to even discuss trying another med (which would only make two, anyway). Then the legislative session starts in January, and I won’t be able to see her until it ends in March/April. Plus, I’m hesitant to mess with my meds during session, as even this crappy “it sort of works…sort of” is better than bottoming out on something that’s even less effective—or utterly ineffective—during session, which is mad-crazy stressful-demanding.
WATCH ME RAGE ABOUT PAPER-PUSHERS MAKING MEDICAL DECISIONS IN PLACE OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE ACTUAL MEDICAL TRAINING.
Absolutely! Out with the soap boxes and bull horns! (Although I currently don’t have enough energy to do more than slump on a soap box and contemplate the bull horn settings.)
I’m way aggravated that I had my meds all sorted out—I was happy, stable, and productive for an unprecedentedly long stretch—and now because of a stupid policy change, I’m off-kilter again. Glargh!
I’m so sorry! what a crappy situation! 🙁
Not that it would have an immediate or even direct benefit, but I think it will be worth writing to Obama when he’s President, and also your Congress Rep and your Senator, to let them know you think this is something that needs to be addressed in health care reform.
Thanks, sweetie. And y’know, before Obama was elected, the thought of writing any government official seemed like a pretty pointless exercise, as I assumed my correspondence would be circular-filed, unread. It’s a measure of how much hope I’ve placed in the forthcoming administration that my first thought when you suggested it was, “hey, that’s a good idea.”
Heh, I broke into SH and since have failed to sell them a 2nd story.
There’s plenty of markets that I’ve only managed to sell one story to. Those bug me less, I guess…
I think you’re due for breaking-in. I would say 2009 is the year. SH is opening up in January, aren’t they?
Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks, sweetie! From your keyboard to the SH editors’ eyes, I shall verily cross digits and limbs to come true.